I just feel like I want to bang my head against the thing some times as the harder I seem to try, the more I seem to be chasing my tail with it and I want to feel I've made SOME sort of progress given the hard work I persistently put in. But no. There has to be something I've been doing wrong all these countless months and years but the problem is I cannot identify it and neither can Mabel. I've changed methods - and as you know I think I've tried every possible method available all to no avail. I'm now at the point when if I think about it too much I feel tearful - and all because I have a problem and I do not know the answer to it, or nobody will tell me the answer to it or tell me how to solve it. So I put 2 and 2 together and make 5 and come up with theories of 'musical dyslexia' (technically known as line and space oddity) which I've googled.
I'm not sure how much more I can take bearing in mind I will have another g3 homework piece on Tuesday that I only have 2 weeks to learn. This piece took me four weeks - bearing in mind I practice often - at least twice daily. I don't think it would be a good idea to have a lesson every four weeks.
Therefore now I am faced with spending yet another evening away from my wife in front of the piano in an attempt to learn these seven simple tunes, six of which I've played perfectly to Mabel between February 2014 and now. I hate to say it but my inability to be able to do this and my efforts to correct it is taking over my entire life. And I'll bet the solution to all this anxiety is so simple if only I knew what it was.
I cannot carry on like this.
1. play the first phrase/couple of bars of the right hand first
2. likewise with the left hand
3. then both hands slowly.
I have also arranged a one hour lesson with Mabs next week just to talk about these worst fears. A sort of Room 101 lesson but not obviously anything to do with the TV show - more Orwellian.
Don't be so bl00dy ridiculous, Mabs is perfect for you = patient, understanding and encouraging. A diamond!dave brum wrote:Would changing teachers be something to mull over?
You'd better take her a little bunch of flowers, boy.dave brum wrote:... the neurotic Emails I've sent her based on sight reading, she might even have seen the similarly neurotic verbal testicalities I've been posting on here of late....
I've been adding other criteria that I want to mention to her as well. There are now nearly four pages of worries and various symptoms of bad playing that have been documented. It's either do this or give up, negatively.
It's been two days since I changed repertoire pieces and I'm a little further in learning the new pieces. And I'm on the second page of Puppet's Complaint which I played perfectly for Mabel in December. I would have learned them and it'll be Thursday and time to change the buggers again. Those bloody dots - they really banjax me.
http://www.musicroom.com/se/id_no/01027 ... tAodsR0APw
I've wasted a fortune on SR books that don't work so I'm a little bit loth to want to spend any more money now.
That's negative! So stop putting moany stuff on and get practising - without being hard on yourself!dave brum wrote: I'm a bit sick of making negative postings. I bet you're all a bit sick of them by now.
That's not negative, it's a Positive wish!dave brum wrote:Just been thinking how nice it would be if I could post something on here about how well I'm doing
I've still got a feeling I shall leave there tomorrow with a sore situpon, so I'd better take a couple of soft cushions to soften the impact of the walking stick marks on the car seat.
UPDATE just put the Drapolene in the fridge.....